Goodbye Teen Years

cakeToday at 9 am eastern time I turned the big 20. The only reason it’s significant is because when I say my age it no longer contains the “teen” part. So I suppose it’s yet another step on the one direction street.

In other news, the exam is done and over with. I have accomplished 50% of what I set out to get out of the class. The other 50% I will find out in about a week or so.

The first 20 years of life have passed, bring on the next 20! 馃榾

Ps. I want that (^^^) cake!

Exam

It is 7:50am on another, what seems like, rainy day. I’ve been awake since 6:18 for some unknown reason. Today is my summer class exam, at 2:00pm, so I have quite a bit of studying still to put in. Today is also the day I plan to seal my weekend plans.

The best part of today is probably the fact that I don’t have to go to work. Lately it has been so damn boring that I’m starting to develop an annoyance with it. Work is work though, nobody said it would be pretty or always the way I want it. Plus on the up side, I get paid for doing nothing…almost :P.

Goodluck to me.

Frustration

frus路trate (frstrt)
tr.v. frus路trat路ed, frus路trat路ing, frus路trates

  1. To prevent from accomplishing a purpose or fulfilling a desire; thwart: A persistent wind frustrated my attempt to rake the lawn.
  2. To cause feelings of discouragement or bafflement in.
  3. To make ineffectual or invalid; nullify.

I don’t know about you, but I don’t think there is a worst feeling for me than being frustrated. It’s like a gut wrenching feeling I just can’t ignore. I’ve had three shitty nights sleep in a row. It tears me up inside. I know what I have to do, to accomplish my goal but I’m not getting an opportunity. Maybe I won’t get a second chance…

It feels like walking into a wall, over and over and over again. Every time you try, you lose a little confidence in your motives. I think it affects me so much because deep inside I’m only truly happy when things work out like I planned. Of course life is a much harsher reality.

But you know sitting here, at work, on another rainy day, listening to Nostrum – Brilliant, Mike Shiver – Feelings, and Conjure One – Tears from the Moon, I feel ever slightly better. Not better because this has accomplished my purpose but I’m just simply soothed by it.

Its hard to concentrate on studying for my exam. Its like a battle of epic proportions. Convoluted feelings, ideas, reality. But the music is oh-so soothing.

Couldn’t sleep so I went out walking
Thinking about you and hearing us talking
And all the things I should have said
Echo now, inside my head

I feel something falling from the sky
I’m so sad I made the angels cry

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Conjure One – Tears from the Moon

Hobbies

“I was at work today and I went to visit the john for the number two. While visiting a stall I couldn’t help but overhear a neighbour of mine making lots of noise with toilet paper. He kept on yanking on toilet paper, ripping it off and doing *something* with it. By the end of my time there I was convinced he was building a toilet-paper castle of gigantic proportions.”

So naturally, I spent some time trying to imagine what a toilet-paper castle of gigantic proportions looked like and wouldn’t you know it, it was time to go home! 馃檪

2006’s most alluring women

limaWhat kind of guy would I be if I completely ignored ‘AskMen.com’s Top 99 Most Desirable Women of 2006‘ list? Well I don’t know, because I’m not that kind of guy. So I’ve categorized this post under ‘Dreams‘ and I highly suggest you check out the list. Though I must say that I was slightly disappointed to see Mrs. 99 in her place, I personally think she deserves a higher place. Oh and who is Dallas Howard?

I am glad to see that Beyonce is nowhere near the top, because frankly being so overrated is bad for her health. I still think shes sitting a little high but that’s why I’m not a judge at AskMen.com. It is funny though that 70% of people disagree with me and feel she should be higher up.

I’ve currently clicked through 75 women and I realized I have not made a prediction for the top. So let me say that I have a spidy hunch that the top spot will be (should be?) held by what’s her name… Not a very good prediction when you can’t remember somebody’s name eh. The one from Victoria secret, with those wings, and wicked eyes. Seriously I’m not kidding I can’t remember! While searching my head for the name I remembered Angelina Jolie, and even though she’s not the one I’m thinking of, I’m sure she must be somewhere near the top, perhaps even top 10! … Aha Adriana Lima! Make sure to check out the sexy wallpaper!

Here is another kicker, Lindsay Lohan beat out Halle Berry? Ha

I just clicked my way to spot #6 which is occupied by Charlize Theron, so I think my prediction will be a good one! … Or not, so apparently Adriana Lima only took 4th? Why didn’t anybody ask me?! That girl is … wow. And if her virginity rumors are true then replace my wow with omg.

Interesting to note that Angelina Jolie, not only made it into the top 10, but made it into the top 3. That women is really on a roll. Of course at this point I just hope I will not be disappointed by the number one gal.

And thankfully it seems like I have not. Congratulations to Jessica Alba, she is definitely a stunner.

starAdriana Lima, Alessandra Ambrosio and Ana Beatriz Barros bikini wallpaper!star

Everybody is pregnant

I had a shitty nights sleep. A lot of things are on my mind. Summer class exam on Thursday, birthday on Friday and other various things to plan.

I was just sitting here at work, making notes from the book when I remembered part of my dream. It was about people giving birth. When I say people I mean men and women. I would for some reason always be standing behind them and wondering where the hell their stomachs were … they did not look pregnant at all. I don't remember if there was anything else to the dream, but I think this is disturbing enough.

If you happen to be a talented dream reader please comment, I'm curious what lead me to dream up something so … fooked up. 

Kansas City Shuffle


bubbles ~ T-freak

… is a neologism that refers to when everyone looks left when they should be looking right.

Mindless has hit 1,000 page views. I would like to thank you for reading. This could not have been accomplished without the help of Jennifer and her wonderful 'In Place of Incandescence' blog. Her blog has had a big hand in referring people to my blog. So thanks Jennifer!

Also I would also like to thank Jamie and her 'am I only subterranean?' blog, as her 'Biggest Nipples' idea has brought in at least one visit everyday since it was posted.

To celebrate this accomplishment, I have added a new header image that I think give's this blog a unique feel. You can grab the desktop wallpaper version here.

In my time I've undertaken several web related projects but I feel most comfortable with this. Something about writing out your ideas is soothing.

Those of you who comment on my posts, thank you, and please continue. I enjoy all your criticism, suggestions, ideas and mumblings! 馃榾